Thursday, October 25, 2007

jockstraps

this halloween i am dressing up with my roommate and some friends as the us national double dutch team. our "uniform" includes very short shorts and i didn't own any appropriate underwear. so i stopped off and picked up a jockstrap. i don't think i've ever actually worn one before and when i put it on it didn't feel quite right. do the straps go under the buttocks or slightly on them? i tried it both ways - neither was comfortable. i think i need to get another pair of small undies.

Monday, October 22, 2007

a decade of men

i recently realized that i've been touching men sexually for a decade. i had my first experience with a guy in late april 1997 and since then i've been pretty much guy-on-guy exclusively except for a couple very drunk nights with some girls when i was in college.

to commemorate this occasion i'm making a list of all the men i've touched - that's lips to penis. i've had similar lists in the past ... guys i've slept with, how many different nationals (marked by passports not ethnicity) have i hooked up with - and i think the last time i counted i was well over 20 ... but i've never made a complete list of all the men i've touched.

it's just as hard as you might expect, so if i can't remember a guys name or if i never knew it in the first place i'm just writing down the place it happened and giving that person a number (i.e. nyc1, boston1, korea1, korea2, nyc2, etc). i think my list is fairly accurate +/- 3 guys per year.

it's kind of nice remembering some of these guys. most of them i haven't thought about for a very long time. and so far, except for maybe 2 or 4 of them, i'm pretty ok with who's on the list. i will post the list for all to read as soon as i get through october 2007.

my hope is that (1) it becomes a living list and keeps growing - at a reasonable rate - and (2) that other gays start doing the same.

re: shoes on feet -- i didn't buy any new shoes last weekend.

Thursday, October 18, 2007

shoes on feet

for years i've worn flip flops year-round.

it all started when i was a young boy in upstate ny (in that very snowy area between the catskills and berkshire mountains). growing up a half-asian/white mix, having only fairly developed white boys to compare myself to (i was in rural upstate ny), i was very embarrassed by my bony frame and concave muscles. i pretty much looked like this picture until late middle school, only taller. i'm the one in green shorts.

so as you can imagine, i tried to keep my body covered at all times. i hardly ever wore shorts, tank tops, and never went without a shirt (even at the pool). at some point between 8th and 9th grade i decided i'd had enough and decided i was only going to wear shorts. and that was it.

i pretty much didn’t wear pants again unless i absolutely HAD to wear them. i wore tuxedo shorts to my prom, i wore shorts to work at ponderosa, i'd sometimes wear shorts skiing … or at least did once.

people used to look at me a little funny – they always have and still do – especially when i'd wear my orange nylon shorts with green nike aqua socks around in the dead of winter with snow past my knees. i liked it.

the cold never really bothered me – or at least not as long as my upper body was covered and warm. so later when i began wearing flip flops, i never saw them as seasonal footwear … i didn't care if it was cold or rainy, snowy or freezing. flip flops are just comfortable and i think look good with just about everything.

and i just don’t like closed toed shoes. my toes feel too confined and every once in a while i'll have a little panic and need to take off my shoes and let my toes spread out.

recently i've been more and more interested in buying proper shoes, but the problem is just don’t feel right wearing them. it's like that guy in that episode of nip/tuck who wants to have his arm amputated because he feels like he was born with an extra limb.

this weekend i'm going to buy some shoes – i'll post pictures.

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

18 months later ...

let me begin by apologizing to my very small but loyal reader base for letting a year and a half go by without a post.

in april ’06 i went into the hospital for a week to have my brain scanned and imaged. when i got out, i kept waiting to get an image to post of the results. a few days became a week, a few weeks became months, months because 18.

and now without further ado, my brain:

the color version is much more impressive. i’ll post that as soon as i have a color scan.

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