thin/skinny

most people look at me and see a slim man. all my adult life i’ve been between a 28” and 30” waist (spending most of my time at 29/30) and since i’ve pretty much always thought of myself as thin, i’ve always considered a 30” waist thin.

but recently i’ve been trying on pants, usually 29s, but none of them fit quite right. I’ve been forced to go smaller which means a am skinny now even though I’ve been trying desperately to grow an ass!

and the problem with the 28” waist is that the rest of the leg gets smaller too. what many don't realize is that i have abnormally large calf muscles for someone my size. everyone says, “oh i’d kill for those calves …” or “you’re so lucky, you have to be born with those.” those people don’t understand the challenge of a large calf muscle on a thin man. up until a couple years ago, my thighs were either as big as or slightly smaller than my calves which makes buying pants a challenge. so now no matter what pants i try on, since they’re 28s, I need to always adjust and re-adjust the parts that cover my calves because they’re just so fucking tight.

last night i bought my first pair of excessively tight jeans (meaning they fit snugly around my ass and all other muscles). they are a cute pair of dark blue paul and joe jeans which i’m breaking in right now as i type.